He Looked Beyond My Faults and Saw My Need
I have just returned from Wednesday night services at my church.
For a couple of months I have felt that I was not walking with God as closely as I once did. I have prayed and asked God to give me back my tears of love I felt when I first met Jesus.
My neighbor has also been going through the same thing and we confessed it to one another just last week and started praying for each other, though I wasn’t sure my prayers were going any higher than the ceiling.
Tonight we had the most unusual communion service I have ever attended. Instead of the deacons serving communion to us, we went to the altar in two groups of eight at a time, with the senior pastor at one table and the associate pastor at the other table.
We actually broke bread and then the pastor asked one of the men to pray. We then ate that bread, the symbol of Christ’s body. We went through the same ceremony with the grape juice (no wine for Baptists) while the pastor quoted scripture again and had one of the other men pray. Then we drank the juice.
All the while this was going on music was being played by the bell choir or being sung by a soloist who was then joined by the congregation.
All the music that touched me so deeply as a child–”The Old Rugged Cross”, “When I Survey the Wondrous Cross”, “Were You There When They Crucified My Lord?” and others that seemed to move me with each one, until I had to quit singing and just started crying. Not little tears but giant, shaking sobs of regret and re-dedication to my Lord and Savior, who gave up Passover until He can have it with us in Heaven.
God gave me back my tears and now I feel as though I can walk on clouds and I feel emotionally drained all at the same time. In other words, I have been given the privilege of falling in love with Jesus all over again, and I wanted to share it with you.
The last song was not the usual “Blest Be the Tie That Binds” but was “Victory in Jesus” instead and one could feel the Holy Spirit moving in that sanctuary as people went forward to pray and re-dedicate their lives.
What a wonderful joy! He looked beyond my faults and saw my need. And He filled that need. Praise God!
Written by ~J~
David M. Says:
May 29th, 2008 at 12:26 pmVisit David M.
J-I’m so glad you are feeling at peace again with our Lord. I think you would be doing yourself a disservice not to examine where your feelings originated. God did not abandon you and you did not abandon God, so why did you feel disconnected? Remember, Mother Theresa lived most of her life feeling she had lost her connection to our Lord. I have no suggestions for you and I have the greatest feeling of happiness that you have resolved this. I think you still have a task ahead of you to examine why this happened, however.
Truthseeker Says:
May 29th, 2008 at 9:41 pmVisit Truthseeker
J, I rejoice with you too that you have “reconnected” with Christ through the Communion service. I firmly believe Christ knew we would need the experience to keep us focused on Him and what He did for us all on the Cross.
My fellowship is having Communion this Sunday; I look forward to refreshing my relationship with Christ along with my brothers and sisters as we partake of Him and remember His sacrifice for us.
~J~ Says:
May 30th, 2008 at 1:48 amVisit ~J~
Thank you, David and Truthseeker.
I have examined my soul myself and asked God to show me where I had stumbled.
I had “taken my eye off the prize” and was trying myself to get the satisfaction that comes only with fellowship with the Lord. I have now let go and let God, wherever that may lead me.